I am in a state of denial

As you know, I am someone who has been very angry about the Brexit and I felt extremely betrayed. I felt as if something had been taken away from me, like some part of my identity was stolen. When Theresa May send this letter the other day, do you know what? I kind of felt nothing, because I am now in a state of denial where I am like: “I live here now, no one is going to throw me away and I am going to try to find a way to stay.” I guess it’s like resignation. They make no sense, because her letter was basically about: “We would like to have everything from the European Union but we don’t want to be in it, because we want our own self-determination.” And yet at the same time she is telling Scotland they can’t have a second referendum. So Scotland can’t determine themselves. And she also compared Scotland to a region of England. That was more upsetting for me than her removing us from Europe.

The way that they handled it, the way that the press have handled it, the way the British parliament have debated it… I feel like there is nothing I or anyone can do now. It’s like you are getting married even though you don’t like the person, but you are doing it anyway because you have sent out the invitations. You have done it. Everyone knows, so you got to do it. Even though it’s the worst decision you have ever made. That’s how I feel about it. I feel a bit like that they are kind of doing it despite themselves. But I don’t want any part of it.

And regarding my identity, I would consider myself a Scottish person living in Germany and also a European. But what weights more is that I am a global citizen. And I come from everywhere and absolutely nowhere at the same time.


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